I have taken a leap of faith – in myself and my abilities as an artist. This leap has caused many people closes to me to gasp out loud, but for me it’s a beautiful fall!
I guess I have always been an artist and have just decided finally to do that full time! If I would not believe in myself who would? So I have begun an adventure and journey that many only dream of.
It started as most journeys do, on an airplane, but it was a different trip, months later that I would take that would start this whole adventure. On my first thought provoking flight I was returning from a business trip, I chatted with my seat-mate about how much I love art, what I do as a part time artist and illustrator and my overwhelming addiction to the study of Vincent van Gogh. At the end of the conversation I said “someday I’ll go see his works in Amsterdam”.
For three days, that hateful word ‘someday’ rang in my head. When we say someday we usually mean never and I was disappointed in myself that I didn’t have more conviction to do something I was clearly passionate about. On the morning of the 4th day, I went downstairs and bought a ticket for myself to Amsterdam. Someday was here, and this was the real start of my adventure to become a full time artist.
It took me 2 years to sort out how to leave a corporate job and a failing relationship and strike out on my own as an artist. It has been terrifying and exciting all at the same time. I believe in myself and my abilities and that first trip to Amsterdam gave me the courage to follow my dream, to just do it now. It was my first real proof that I could do something others saw as risky if I set my mind to accomplish it.
So now that I am 3 months into the free-fall I am beginning to get my bearings on a new direction and to let go of many of my preconceptions about myself and my art. My life is now the result of just deciding to do something I would love to do, rather than just talking and wishing for it to be different. In May I will return to Amsterdam for the 4th time since changing how I wanted my life to be. Proof it is always possible to change if you believe in yourself.
More art and more tales of my adventures to come, this is only the beginning; there are so many possibilities ahead of me.